And now i see my outspoken ways, tends to upset people in Carlos guild,..though he has never asked me to be anything other than who I am, and i use this as an example only, but cause she is the sweetest girl i know,..i can never be a quiet Starr, i will always be an outpoken Bella. Spania will be #1, his guild is filled with Johhny Maks.
It was mentioned someone said that i always have to be right, this has to be have been said by someone who does not know me,..i only defend those i see being made fun of,...someone starts on someone, i tend to put a stop to it,..an yes it makes me a target, and makes me suspect what others say to me. This is sad, because in the game,...i am always just about having fun....only in the forum,,,...do i tend to give my opinion, and that is not always what everyone likes to hear...
I know you think of me of this tough girl, but this is the furthest thing from the truth. In life,..you know of my bulldog who died on chistmas,..that to me was devastating. but one thing you dont know about me,..is August 9, 2008, i had to put to sleep my 14 year old argentine dogo (pittbull/greatdane mix), i cried everday for two years....and this week is perticularly bad for me,..becasue, i know you will not even understand this,..but last easter,..i had decided,...god would forgive me,.on this day, if any day,.... i just would rather be with my animals no longer with me. The pain of missing,..seems at times to far out weigh daily life.....I guess my family had others plans for me that day,...things always dont turn out how you think they will.
i just ask that you dont always assume the worst, help those you see being harrassed...and just strive to be the best you can....
September (aka Bella)